Starting to be broken

So I am currently sitting in the airport just getting done our launch activities. Launch was really good I got to see not only my team mates again but also my friends on the other team. It was a good time to reconnect before going onto the field. However the past couple days would have to be hands down the hardest thing I have ever had to go through. When My parents left me at the airport it didn't hit me until like 1 hour after they left. I came to realize how much they truly mea to me and I felt like a peace of me was being left behind. For the past couple days I have felt a hole and all I wanted todo was just fly back and be wit my family and friends. When I got here it became real and I am currently looking up this huge mountain which I have to climb and it's going to take nine months before I am at the top. So I told myself I just have to take it one day at a time and just focus on the day and left God use me that day. I started to talk to my buddy from the other team and he was going through the same thing feeling homesick and just wanting to go home but he told me that when he was reading his bible god spoke to him and said this" YOU DON'T HAVE TO DO NINE MONTHS, YOU ONLY HAVE TO DO TODAY" when he told me that it just hit me really hard and it's not going to be easy. I am going to have to learn to trust god everyday. But I have came to realization that god must break us before he can build us back up. Right now I feel broken right now I feel hopeless right now I feel like I am literally looking up this huge mountain that I am not able to climb up. But I start to look at the big picture and realize that god is here with me and this huge montain is the smallest thing in Gods eyes and I just have to trust him. Being Broken is not easy but it is neseccary if we want to become the people God intended us to be. So right now as you read this I ask that you will continue and pray for me as I am about to experience something that is going to mess me up for the good. But it is hard and without god I would not be able to be here right now. So thank you again for your prayers they are truly a blessing! 

I am not sure when I will be able to blog again but it should be within the next week or so 🙂 

I love you guys all and thank you for coming alongside with me as I take this journey 🙂